Here’s What I Do When I Get Confused By My Depression.

“Why are you so sad? Your life is great! Just Be Happy” – Society 

Today I thought it would be a good idea to talk about how illogical depression is. No I’m not saying you are wrong for having depression, I’m saying depression doesn’t make sense and it isn’t fair. However for us with chronic depression its something we have to accept as a facet of our lives.

I’m going to use my own life as an example here. I have a day job that I can say is close to being a dream job by most people’s standards, live in a nice condo and have a loving supportive family. I should be happy however many days I just feel sad, like there is no happiness, I don’t want to smile, I don’t want to talk, I just want to be left alone to curl into a ball and not exist. 

There’s a lot of things you can do to help with this (I am definitely pro medication when needed, exercise is important and many other things) but it always feels like it takes so much to do these things. One of the most important things I’ve learned to do is to call out the depression. So often we just accept the depression like “I guess this is just who I am” but it’s not true. 

Depression is not who you are, you are a beautiful human being which was created for love. You however are currently in a depressive state, I found by separating myself from my depression and learning how depression comes and goes I can accept the fact that I may be currently in a depressive state, it’s a part of me but not who I am. 

If I continue living my life, pushing through my depressive days and seeking help I can eventually be relieved from my depression. I know seeking help can be one of the toughest things to do but it’s necessary.

Until we speak again keeping fighting the monster,

– The Survivor